Monthly Archives October 2009

We said goodbye to Emily on Wednesday.

Our home, and lives, seem much quieter now, and although most of what would have reminded us of Emily went with her, I will find a random hair clippy on the floor, or a shirt that never quite made it in with her stuff, and I pause for a moment.  I keep thinking that I have to go wake her up, or fix her lunch, or that I need to turn up the radio because she loves that song. But when I turn around in the car, she’s not there.

I don’t cry like I thought I would.  I guess I did all of that in the weeks leading up to her leaving us.  But I thought I’d grieve and grieve after she left.  Yet for some reason we’ve been given a lot of grace and peace and know that this is what is best for Emily because God said it was best for Emily, and for us...

Sometimes it’s a “no.”

Every night since December, I’ve prayed with Eddy that she would be able to be adopted by our family.  We’ve fought for her, trained her and loved her, and very soon it will be time to say good-bye.

We are, of course, heartbroken.  This has not been an easy last couple of weeks.  I feel tired and weary and spent.  There are so many details as to why this is happening now, most of which I just don’t have in me to share, but I did want all of you out there to have this update since you’ve been so loving and supportive of our family, including Eddy.

Thankfully, God has had a plan for Eddy’s life since before she was born.  He knew she would be removed from her mother and then sent to live with us for a very important time in her life...